Like a Bad Star...

when i put myself in the picture of success...

Thu, 23 Apr 2009 02:33:01 GMT

so i made a new roadmap and to kick it off,taking two summer classes and told my boss i'ma work parttime this summer but i wanna keep taking classes so idk what I'll do with my job come the end of summer :/

Cute is what we aim for: Lyrical Lies

An old man gave me a tip he said
"Don't waste your time with politics" he said
"Just chase skirts instead"
"Life is too short, and you're almost dead" he said
"I met a woman once, I gave her my best shot"
"But never did I talk and talk and talk"
"If I had her back, I'd be as real as my age"
"I so don't blame them, I wouldn't do the same"
"But I can blame them, I'd sing her this"

And you want to be dressed in poetry
But imagery doesn't fit
And you want resizing
But darling dear get a grip

And I think what I just wrote is going over my head
I'm stealing lines from myself
And what I said was never said
It's just a lyrical lie
Made up in my mind

And you want to be dressed in poetry
But imagery doesn't fit
And you want resizing
But darling dear get a grip

You're moving but not aware
You're drowsy without a care
Except keeping your whites behind your lids
And your lids are your best canvas
I can only imagine what you're painting, what you're painting
And your body on my mattress is proof
And your makeup on my pillow is proof
But do you think I am telling you the truth

It's just a lyrical lie
Made up in my mind

And you want to be dressed in poetry
But imagery doesn't fit
And you want resizing
But darling dear get a grip

And you want to be dressed in poetry
But imagery doesn't fit
And you want resizing
But darling dear get a grip

Rilo Kiley: "Pictures of Success"

Build your own television receiver
Staying home can't be that bad for me
Cause i'm not scared
But i'd like some extra spare time
Easily earn me big money

I'm a modern girl but i fold in half so easily
When i put myself in the picture of success
I could learn world trade
Or try to map the ocean

When you're dead
In hospitals and freeways
When you're dead
In resting homes and clinics
When you're dead
It must be nice to finish
When you're dead

I've had it with you
And mexico can fucking wait
And all of those french films about trains
Cause i'm not scared
But i'd like some extra spare time
I'm not scared
But the bills keep changing colors

When you're dead
In hospitals and freeways
When you're dead
In dress shirts and neckties
When you're dead
In apartments and on beaches
When you're dead

They say california is a recipe for a black hole
And i say i've got my best shoes on
I'm ready to go (ready to go)
Ready to go
Ready to go
I'm ready to go
Ready to go
Ready to go
Ready to go
I'm ready to go
Ready to go
Ready to go
Ready to go
I'm ready to go
Ready to go
Ready to go
Ready to go
I'm ready to go

These are times that can't be weathered and
We have never been back there since then

These are times that can't be weathered and
We have never been back there since then

These are times that can't be weathered and
We have never been back there since then

These are times that can't be weathered and
We have never been back there since then

brinner!

Fri, 10 Apr 2009 16:30:15 GMT

brinner last nite @ bulls head
douchebag waiter,douchebag ppl,friggn guidos being all loud & ghey.
Charles is good @ those machines with the stuffed toys so he won a few.lol

demetri martin.person= awesome dvd special.i like owning some demetri :P

I'm uber excited for the 3EB concert coming to stamford! and for my weekend trip to mohegan sun! <3

What will I be doing for easter weekend? only thing thats planned is easter dinner w/charles' fam. his niece is adorable so im thinkn we'll bring over something cute/easter-y for her.This'll be like the 4th time I'm over there i think -i finally stopped getting all nervewrecked about it.

'tis friday,im not at work for a change. its nice out so im outtttta here.

Happy Easter~

Wed, 11 Mar 2009 00:43:52 GMT

so I came home this monday after one long work day (6 surgeries!) I started opening my mail & first was another baby shower invite.
ugh.people need to stop having babies,rofl. jk!
i assumed the 2nd letter which was from NCC was the invite to my may graduation. to my suprise,it was a letter stating congrats for being accepted into NCC's deans list of students. I'm on the deans list!!!!yipee!

:)

I baked myself a cake to celebrate.

I feel just like somebody else

Fri, 27 Feb 2009 12:51:44 GMT

The Wallflowers
"One Headlight"

So long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they say I lost my only friend
Well they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees

I seen the sun comin' up at the funeral at dawn
The long broken arm of human law
Now it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face
So I wondered how she hung around this place

[Chorus:]
Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me & Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight

She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day
And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening
Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
And I seen the sun up ahead
At the county line bridge
Sayin' all there's good and nothingness is dead
We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothin' left
She hit the end-it's just her window ledge

[chorus]

Well this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well it smells of cheap wine & cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think her death it must be killin' me

[chorus]

speirs the sugarglider :)

Thu, 26 Feb 2009 02:14:15 GMT

Charles & I went over to the wallingford pet store which was the closest place that sold sugargliders. It came in a tiny box and he sounds like a robot when he yelps. He named it speirs after band of brothers. Hes thinking of getting another one & told me I could name it-i gotta think of a neat name now.lol. i luv my boyfriend,hes awesome <3

i hung out with gus & xtian last wed-i ended up home by midnight & drunk off saki bombs from kona grill.lol. it was pretty fun but also pretty stupid to do on a weeknite,lol.anywho,it was a nice time though considering i never hang with xtian.

i bought sf4 and im abit addicted lately. i must go play now...

<3

Thu, 22 Jan 2009 23:21:47 GMT

Charles Birthday is today :)

Dear and the Headlights
"I Just Do"

Oh so the words have all been said
The feeling's old but it's new to me
I guess I'm scared to death but
Oh I just love you Oh I just love you

Telling my friends, "I gotta go"
That I need rest
But I'm running for the phone
I think Casey knows but
Oh I just love you Oh I just love you

A watch now on my wrist, a collard shirt
And hair clean cut sculpted
I'll iron out the flaws
Come meet your new in-laws
Oh here's the awkward pause

When I look at you,
I've caught myself off-guard a time or two
Those funny times I realize that I've been staring
Way too long and you're done talking
Not to mention I've stopped breathing

I'm such a mess
I'm rushing to open your car door
You lean and open mine before
I can turn the key and
Oh I just love you Oh I just love you

Calling to say hi on your break
In less than twenty words you made
My whole damn day and
Oh I just love you Oh I just love you

In the coffee shop you sipped
Your drink and we all sat and talked
My mind it wandered off alone
To find a thought as beauty
Poured out when you talked

Stand still in my sight
A switch got hit somewhere back in my mind
Just then I realized there what I have
To do, because I couldn't stand to look
At you across another crowded room
And know that you would not be mine

Oh time drags its feet
but somehow you sneak it past me
Night after night
At this rate if you stay with me
I'll go to bed at twenty-three
And wake up sixty-five
Well next to you that would be just fine
That'd be just fine

I'm rushing to open your car door
You lean and open mine before
Oh I just love you
Oh I just love you

You call to say hi on your break
You make my whole damn day
Oh I just love you
Oh I just love you

Oh I just love you
Oh I just love you

JD<3 a 'last thought'

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 15:13:22 GMT

I absolutely loved the fact that I was able to catch the season premiere of scrubs! It was great to see 2 new episodes in one night.I didn't mind the differences too much. BUT one thing,like wth,how could the janitor be fired?! It must be some kinda twist he's too funny to be let go ...&for trippn JD... That's his thang!
I couldn't stop thinking bout charles while watching it...One reason being JD&Turk were leaving work and heading out to ''steak night''- charles & a few friends started 'dinner club'(a weekly event) about a month ago.

Since I'm all about Zach Braff,I gotta say I think he's an all around amazing kinda guy.I'm his friend on myspace& his blogs,profile song choices,and bulletins are always a treat :D

----other than scrubs---

I made plans for fri&sat! Bride Wars with my bff friday after work :D then prolly some dinner or jus drinks. I miss Marilynn!! My saturday is booked :/

I still can't believe its 2009 already.time flies by too fast.

'tis the season for celebration ;)

Wed, 24 Dec 2008 16:05:06 GMT

First off- my boss is away till Jan 5th.I get some time off! :D
Perfect because after X-Mas is Danys Birthday & than New Years. Charles is working more than usual though because this is the time of year people buy more liquor,lol.
We exchanged gifts last night! He gave me the longest hug after reading my xmas card...& it was hard thinkn of a gift to get him-mister prada bag & fendi glasses-but he loved what I got him! I got him this skagen watch...

Tonight at midnight is opening-gifts time!

This past weekend in short: spent time with the BFF at her bday/graduation celebration @ Twenty.Also attended Shazia's wedding. I never tried indian food before,it was pretty yummy. I also never been to a wedding like that-it was very different.

Songs I can't stop listening to lately: Emily Haines& The Soft Skeleton ''Nothing & Nowhere'' and Stars ''Heart''.

I'm excited for the New Year!! 2009!! ;)

I've been running on empty.

Thu, 23 Oct 2008 17:52:44 GMT

....

High and Dry --- Radiohead

Mon, 15 Sep 2008 12:19:28 GMT

Two jumps in a week, I bet you think that's pretty clever don't you boy.
Flying on your motorcycle, watching all the ground beneath you drop.
You'd kill yourself for recognition; kill yourself to never ever stop.
You broke another mirror; you're turning into something you are not.

Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry

Drying up in conversation, you will be the one who cannot talk.
All your insides fall to pieces, you just sit there wishing you could still make love
They're the ones who'll hate you when you think you've got the world all sussed out
They're the ones who'll spit at you. You will be the one screaming out.

Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry

It's the best thing that you've ever had, the best thing that you've ever, ever
had.
It's the best thing that you've ever had; the best thing you've had has gone away.

Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry

<3

let me go...

Tue, 10 Jun 2008 23:00:40 GMT

DEAR AND THE HEADLIGHTS LYRICS
"Sweet Talk"
Speak dumb like every other one
Don't want to let you down
I'd rather let you fall apart
And so you back off
A bit less obvious
Oh you forgot I called
Don't take it personal personal honey
I know you've just been busy or
You need to be alone
Well you can call me when you're bored
I'll sing a song low
Over the telephone
In lower decibels
so you can hear it and hear it and hear it and hear it
And lost it though
You've lost that privilege
With a hundred more
Hold his hand now
Out on the mission field
Your hearts compatible
Mine breaks alone alone alone
Your new boyfriend
You got your new boyfriend
You got your new boyfriend
You got your new boyfriend
I bet he likes you more than he likes me cause
I'm the former one
He's the latter one
He'd never say it but it's right
I'm sorry that was rude of me
Forget I said a thing
But don't forget it when you're starring at him
Say something you mean
Don't be polite
Kiss, kill nothing in between
I can't sit still, sit still
Get canceled, can't sit still
Not when you got, you got, you got
Your new boyfriend
You got your new boyfriend
You got your new boyfriend
You got your new boyfriend
I bet he likes you more than he likes me cause
I'm the former
He's the latter one
He'd never say it but it's right
Passed on up and over
Said she did
Said she didn't come on
Pass me up
Let me go
Throw away
Let me go
Oh it's ok not to be the same
Be the same
You've got him, oh
You've got him, oh

nonsense.

Mon, 12 May 2008 02:52:12 GMT

This entry= nonsense probably,but whatever.

One time,one moment,one reality. It was a blur of emotions,fake ones. Rolling around my head trying to find a place to connect but instead found you. Where was I? Unknown. Untouched. But I stayed there. I looked but saw nothing else.
I wonder if anyone cared to notice.

sweet

Sun, 11 May 2008 01:10:00 GMT

marilynn is just the bestest. We went and saw "Made of Honor",mad cute of a movie. Then SBC for a martini & dessert before some Target shopping. Looking around Target all tipsy was actually fun,hah. I bought the last two sets of scrubs i needed to own. yay :P lolz.

I got my xmas gift from her, finally. I was like "you do know that its May right?" LOL. She rocks,she got me some V.S perfume body sprays!and a quote magnet that reads: "Waiting for the right guy. Meanwhile Having a great time with the wrong ones." haha.

Its May,kickoff for summer starts now!w00t, i know itll be another awesome summer...

two words

Sat, 10 May 2008 19:51:06 GMT

two words for last night: HOOKAH BAR

confused

Fri, 09 May 2008 16:07:04 GMT

I didn't wanna update this blog anymore but I just had to...

that guy,wow,is he confusing me,doesn't wanna be with me(is dating someone else!) but called me up at 3am last nite complaining.I didn't appreciate that at all,I have to wake up for work at 630am,so I hung up.He's acting self-fish...and I'm just tired of it. If he loves me, he should be with me,if not then he needs to stop bothering me...end of story.

And its 12ish in the afternoon,And I have nothing to do at work.maybe ill leave early...

nope.

Tue, 06 May 2008 11:31:05 GMT

I was sleepn,watchn scrubs last night... shoulda stayed home. But I went out to grab a drink wit katie and mike."cinco de mayo" as the excuse....

woot, i'm sucha nerd. I added the scrubs theme song to my music playlist :)

ew

Sat, 03 May 2008 11:42:29 GMT

I watched my scrubs dvd all night.

*sigh*<3 J.D and his crazy thoughts... I'm down to 1 dvd ,which isn't good,what am I gonna watch after that?

I had an awesome dream last night. I found myself on The Used's tour bus and I finally met Bert!I hugged him :] That was pretty awesome,too bad it was jus a dream,I really wanna meet him already...

I ran into an old classmate yesterday...she jus graduated,everyone is graduating,its been 4 yrs since high school...ew,the yrs have been passing by way too fast.

...I just got called in to work for a few hrs..its 730am on a saturday! (>_<) bleh.

breathe.

Thu, 01 May 2008 12:22:28 GMT

I got off the city bus right around ddonuts and decided to walk the next few streets up to work....

new title for my livejournal

Thu, 01 May 2008 12:07:25 GMT

...from this song.

FINCH LYRICS
"What It Is To Burn"
She burns
Today's on fire
The sky is bleeding above me, and I am blistered
I walk these lines of blasphemy, every day
And still:
Like a bad star, I'm falling faster down to her
She's the only one who knows, what it is to burn
I feel diseased
Is there no sympathy from the sun?
The sky's still fire
But I am safe in here, from the world outside
So tell me
What's the price to pay for glory?
Like a bad star, I'm falling faster down to her
She's the only one who knows, what it is to burn
Today is fire, and she burns
Today is fire, and she burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
Like a bad star, I'm falling faster down to her
She's the only one who knows, what it is to burn

Make damn sure

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 11:57:40 GMT

Taking Back Sunday

You've got this new head filled up with smoke
I've got my veins all tangled close
To the jukebox bars you frequent
The safest place to hide
A long night spent with your most obvious weaknesses
You start shaking at the thought
You are everything I want
'Cause you are everything I'm not

And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close

I just wanna break you down so badly
While I trip over everything you say
I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way

My inarticulate store bought hangover hobby kit
In time, it says, 'You, oh, you are so cool.'
Scissor-shaped across the bed
You are red, violent red
You hollow out my hungry eyes
You hollow out my hungry eyes

And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close

I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
Well I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way

I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way (worst way)

I'm gonna make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
I'll make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far...

I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
Well I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way (worst way)

I'm gonna make damn sure
I just wanna break you down so badly
I just wanna break you down so badly (damn sure)
In the worst way (worst way)

lolz

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 16:15:29 GMT

Apparently, I am the one to call for info on the latest video games,at least xtian thought so. He was hoping there was a midnight release for gta4 and if I was going to it. Lolz.
I think ill convince my other friend to lend me the mario kart for wii...